To put it simple, I don’t hold any particular religion.
This is a story about my roots and I’d like to share who am I.
At the start, I have a religious grandmother who believes in one of sects of Shinto. She was born as an eldest daughter in a branch of one of the biggest churches.
When I was young, I’ve often visited there for child camps(that was so much fan) and some ceremonies. I’ve worn their special kimonos and played traditional Japanese instruments.
My whole families were always there.
Additionally, my great-grandma was a top of the church.
That wasn’t really religious thing to me.
My grandma talks about the god but what she’s taught me was all ethical.
“Be helpful and generous.
Be thankful for everything you have.”
This was the base of teaching of her.
However, the older as I get, the more I ashamed of this environment.
I knew it’s not NORMAL.
In Japan, most of people don’t have any religion. Someone even think it’s a cult if I talk about it.
Since my parents are supportive and generous, I’m not any religion now but those childhoods are definitely part of me.
Long time has passed, few days ago, I went headquarters of the religion for the first time in 2 years. That reminds me of my childhood.
The reason why I went there was just to make my grandma happy. But I felt like I’m touching my roots.
When I hear the sounds of Japanese instruments, I’m relieved.
When I see purple flags in shrines, I remember a funeral of my grandpa.
I don’t choose religion but I can feel spirits and souls.
I didn’t realised but now I know the reason why I go to shrines often. That made me feel like I’m home.
I’ve tried Ramadan with Muslim friends. I’ve been to Catholic Church. I respect all the religions.
However, I didn’t accept where did I come from.
Now, I know who am I and I’m so proud of my family, my roots and how I can feel Japanese culture close more than people called me not normal.
I’ve always felt gloomy when Japanese claims themselves as a Sinto even they only go to shrine on New Year’s Day.
Faith is not comparable.
The way of Beliefs are depend on people.
There are disadvantages as much as the advantages to have a religion.
Still, the religion could be represent who you are.